Tired

I feel very much like the cat in the pic. Exhausted.
Needing a loooonng rest.
I had worked thru the weekends and have had no days off the past two weekends.
Humans are not meant to work like bees or ants. We NEED the weekends off. Otherwise our system starts to fail.
First the physical being. My back hurts. My eyes hurt. Myshoulders badly need a rub.
Then the mental pain. Not unlike a headache.
Then some wierd stuff starts to affect important things in your life. Like your phone LCD screen going beserk. My phone is hardly two years old. Why should I replace it? Why? Cos I am living in the 21st Century where everyone needs to stay connected for no apparent reason.
So now I got me a new phone.
The way I feel right now I may also want to get me a new body.
Ouchhh!!! I need to go rest. Blog u later.

diamond

It is that time of the year when I am to make resolutions, list out my hopes and targets, realign my strategies and place myself at the starting line of where I want to go from here.

I am celebrating a new added figure to my age.

I hinted and hinted about getting a birthday present like the one above. A diamond piece of anything. Of course NOBODY got me that. I got lots of nice new condo/house stuff. Even got a fancy watch but still no diamonds. No bright shiny k*88 my a55 diamond.

I have lots to celebrate for this year. My skin is looking its best in years. Lost almost all of the ugly darkish pigmentation.....o well, at the very least its a much much lighter color that it even looks like the kind of shading that people BUY and place on their faces to imitate bone structure. Yup sireee I got it free and it looks good with the smooth healthy glow of skin on my face!

I find that my memory power has improved after 8 years from the major health scare incident that I had. I am more confident of my analysis ability and do not need to pre-prepare myself based on memory power alone. Hey, I am doing great, if I may say so. Thank God for that. I believe that I have fully recovered and am now in a position even better than before ever!

I have maintained the same body shape and weight for decades and this, I believe (especially when I meet old friends) is a major achievement. I never realised that. Yup, I DO look good. maybe I was never the pretty one but "elegance and chic" are words worthwhile to be described as!

I may not have the picket fence or the 2.5 kids or the fat belly hubby or the expensive cars and houses but I am financially independent.

I get to go abroad for my summer and winter holidays. I have an above average condo and car. So I do ok on the financial side too. (Definitely not too rich that I attract the wrong guys but comfortable enough to remain contented).

Now I think its ok not to get the diamond gift after all. I dont need a stone thats a diamond.

I AM the diamond of my life. Yes!!!

ashes

Today a colleague resigned. He decided to do so because his life partner has been diagnosed with cancer and will undergo an operation next week. My colleague wants the time to take care of his loved one during the months ahead.

What would you do if u were in that position?

A cousin of mine was in that quandry a few months ago. His wife had cancer which had spread to her brain cells. He gave up his business, his golf, his fun time and basically his life to care for her right up to the end. She soon could not recognise anyone but she kept on knowing him. I remembered seeing him mix a health drink for her at the hospital. This was a cousin who had a rather naughty past. I believe he had even fathered a child out of wedlock. He had another child with his first wife and one more fom the present dying wife. He changed over the years. She was prolly the best partner he could hope for....they matched each other perfectly even though she was from a different culture and religion. She understood him. He was her second husband. She had a child from her first marriage too. Yes, they were lucky to have met and found each other. Then they were tested right up to the end.

Will my colleague have a similar experience? I hope not. It wasnt easy for my cousin. When I relate my cousin's story, it takes only minutes at the most. He had to live months with someone whose personality changed from his loved one into someone else. Someone who had good and bad days....mostly bad and very bad days.

It scares me that people die slow deaths. I hope when its time for me that I will go in a split second. No one needs to look after me. No one would need to change me or bathe me or whatever. I just want to go quickly.

hopes and wishes

Starlight, starbright,

first star I see tonight

I wish I may, I wish i might

Have the wish i wish for tonight

I wish.......

• to be loved unconditionally and whole heartedly by someone whom I also feel the same about
• to be told often if not daily by that person how much I am loved
• to never have to wonder whether I am there just cos there is no one better currently available
• to be loved by someone who does NOT have so much of issues in his life that he fails to appreciate fully the actual wonder of my presence in his life
• to be with someone who is unafraid to say that he loves me
• to be with some with whom I am not afraid of saying the words 'I love you'
• to be with someone to whom I am not just a good friend (heck, I already have loads of good friends)
• to be with someone who does not just see me as a vacation mate
• to be with someone who wants me as a life mate
• to be with someone who is able to see how short life really is that he would not waste any more time being away from me.
• to start a new?

toilets

You CAN'T choose to not fall sick. OK. Lesson learned.

It was a toilet visitng week. Home toilet. Office toilet. Mall toilet.

Now I CHOOSE to erase memories of those visits.

Kapooooosssshhhhh....... Memories deleted.

I need a vacation plan.

Not the actual vacation as yet.....just some definite plans to look forwards to.

JAR, wonderful JAR has said that I am always welcomed. I pray I never outstay his welcome.

Just an aside on toilets. While on vacation, I have seen several fanciful toliets. The ones that I remember most were the ones I saw in Las Vegas. There was this funky restaurant that we visited and as usual, I neeeded to visit the toilet. I remember loud music being played and the unusual positioning of the toilets and its lightings. It wasnt particularly beautiful but it was outlandish. There was yet another toilet also in Las Vegas in a new hotel that was very elegant that I actually made JAR go visit it even tho he had no need of a restroom visit.

I am a person who is very particular about toilets. I need them dry and clean. I need them left dry and clean by all other users too. I have even fought battles based on this need.

Why is this of no importance to so many people?