Friday, September 21, 2007

pigmentation story


Been so busy lately. So much to be done both at work and at home. Unable to even visit my condo (read that as my vacation home) lately too.
I will be working this weekend. Its a good thing I enjoy my job. How do people who actually hate what they do survive their busy periods?
Lets move on to a vain topic. Its now over a year that I've started using the products introduced by my beautician. My skin is a hundredfold better looking. I used to have two big dark spots (pigmentation) on my cheeks. That was horrible since as a teen ager I had reasonably good skin. In my twenties people used to say that I had nice glowing skin. Then.....it happened. I dont know where it came from but I had to live for years with the uninvited 'monsters'. I was not happy. I had to cover up my face with thick make-up everytime I were to leave the house.
I lost confidence. I began to believe that I could never be pretty.
When my brother had his engagement, I was looking like a beast.....I imagined that people were thinking....ah....thats why the elder sister remains unmarried....she's too ugly for words.
Anyways my brother's engagement did not last. He married a nicer girl. And I recovered my looks!
How's that for a happy ending?
Looking back the possible reasons that the pigmentation spots arrived could be the life-longmedication that I was forced to take after falling ill 9 years ago. It could also be due to some make up that so many of us used back in the 90's. There was a period when looking good meant that u had shiny skin. And at that time there were even products from Japan that gave you the said 'glow'. I tried it. My friends tried it. I think most of us who did ended up with some pigmentation. My face however had the biggest, darkest and worst effects.
Now its almost history.
I do NOT wear any thing to cover my skin anymore. Maybe a little mascara. Always some lipstick. Never any foundaton or powder any more. I can proudly go out with just some sun screen. The pigmentation has lightened to almost my skin color. I am almost pretty; even if thats only in my eyes. After all thats whats most important. When you believe that you look good, you will feel good.
Have a good weekend!

Friday, September 14, 2007

Headache

I woke up with a headache this morning. All courtesy of my two little nieces.

Ok. Lets start at he begining.
Yesterday started with a bang. Nope.....tremours really. Real physical tremours caused by the aftermath of an earthquake in a land not quite nearby. As my office is a high rise building, we get to experience the tremours. It was not as scary and it was tiring. Yup, we all had to evacuate by walking down all the way. Some nuts went ahead and took the elevators.
Anyways it was better when that was over cos we got to take the elevators up.
After that incident, I went for my next meeting, walking down three floors for my next meeting. Guess what? I had taken the wrong 'work-bag' with me. I then walked (in an obvious hurry) up the three floors (at this point people were using the elevators to get back to their offices so I could reach faster by walking). After getting the right bag I walked all the way down again.
So much of walking and climbing and I am NOT on vacation doing some trail up some unknown adventure land.
Got home feeling very tired. Fell asleep after my bath. There was a heavy knock on my bedroom door. It was one year old niece and she just wanted in.....basically to jump on my bed. Managed to persuade her to go out (after the tumbled up and down my comforters). Fell asleep yet again. nother stronger knock.....it was almost three year old niece coming in to show me her framed art work.....it was actually very well done.....almost picasso like.

My head is in pain now. Its not meant to be woken up when its on sleep mode.
A few years ago I had a very bad headache. It turned out that I had suffered a minor form of stroke. I have to be careful.

Friday, September 07, 2007

Fireworks

I love fireworks. The accompanying pic is one taken by JAR when we visited Niagara Falls. Apparently they have fireworks there every Friday and Sunday....and we all got to see both days.

Talking about fireworks, it is used to also describe intense pleasurable feelings like when you meet someone whose mere presence makes your hormones go haywire. Have you ever experienced such emotions?
I wish I could say that I had but my personal experience is that I may like the physical looks of someone who has the sexiest body, eyes, etc, etc but I need to find out what goes on inside the brains as well as how the emotions of the person works in order to go Woooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhh!!!

At this point in my life I also hope that when I cause the fireworks in someone else's head, its is also because of more than my physical being.

Now the reality of meetings that causes fireworks. Just like its namesake, its beautiful, exciting, colorful as it bursts into flames in the sky. Then it just disappears, dies and the night is silent all over again.

I would want more from my ties with another human being. I would forgo a fireworks type meeting for something maybe less dramatic but more solid and dependable.
I am not a fireworks person.

Monday, September 03, 2007


Some sad news on Thursday. An uncle had passed on. His wife was my dad's cousin.

I wasnt close to him but I felt for my aunt and cousin. Life has to go on.


I rested well over the weekend. It was a long weekend as there was a public holiday attached to it. Mom and I decided to laze around the house the first day, leaving only to get the papers and to go out for our meals. Bliss. The bed had never fulfilled its function as well as it did that day.


The second day we decided to go visit my married siblings, my aunt and whatever relatives who lived along the way. That was fun and full of gossip gathering too.....like my aunt who was lamenting of the contractor who is not completing the renovation of her house. I think he has gambling debts but who knows what the reason might be???


The final day of freedom was spent shopping around town. Got me a pair of dark cargo pants. I plan to wear it on my flight to my next vacation. I am done wearing tight jeans. It affected my peeing abilities on 24 hour flights. I shall try wearing big baggy rubberised cargo pants. It will be winter but I shall be wearing tights underneath it when i travel.


Now its back to work.........I cant wait for the next three months to fly by so I can start my vacation!