Emotional operational results

I read in the papers today that a local celebrity was taken to court by his wife of over 30 years for divorce.
He refused to divorce saying that his wife's doctor had pre-warned him that she would undergo some form of emotional instability after her operation for ovarian/womb cancer. She says they have irreconcilable differences.
if what he says is true, he has my respect for hanging in there thru the bad times.
For me, reading this piece of news was like having a light bulb being switched on in the dark room that I have been in.

I have had two operations in the past two years.
Thank God, both removal of whatever was there proved to be non cancerous.
I have physically recovered even though I still have follow-ups to contend with.
Nobody (not even me) realized the impact of this on my emotional state.
I went thru a phase of saying that I have that I need to live my life to the fullest, take chances and even do things that I may not have dreamed of doing prior to that.
That had some wonderful outcome but it also had some not so healthy results.
It did mean that I 'lived' a fuller life within the short span of time.

I also experienced emotional lows and still do.
I have never spoken about this to any medical doctors and have no intentions of doing so in the short term.
I tend to feel hurt more easily especially from those closest to me.
I am lucky that many of them still stand by me even after such reactions.

Are all these only because of having been in a position of being at the cross roads of life and death?
Or is it further compounded by the hormonal changes of age?
I really have no idea.
Maybe it is all of the above.

A little break and packing thoughts

At last I am in the little 'break' period where work activities will slow down for a few precious days before it will pick up again at a tremendous speed and pace.
It is so good to be able to breathe and quickly catch up on stuff u had to put aside.

In the past two days,I have done quite some work that will be handy in the future because of this. I am happy that I have used the time well.
Tomorrow we will have a meeting in the late evening (Yuks! I hate it when they do that on Friday evenings.)

Today, after completing another 'self forecast work', I took a few minutes to check out possible places to visit on my vacation. This is FUN! Next I also will check the weather at those places.
Where I live, we wear basically the same type of clothes throughout the year.
The temperature does not change that much. Our buildings and homes are mostly air-conditioned. So, it is mostly summer wear for us.

When u travel in a large country like USA or China or Australia, u need to be better prepared. I am always fascinated when we drive in the span of an hour in the USA, u could possibly be in the desert (dry and hot and lifeless) to a lake (huge and beautiful) to the mountains (fur trees and deers running suddenly across the road) to a snow covered area (white and cold and still, beautiful). It also means u need to have different types and thickness of clothing to survive the trip. I have left quite a bit of my clothes at my friends' home basically because it would serve no purpose to be brought back to my country cos it will never be used. Only downside is I then would need new purchases if I traveled elsewhere (downside? Hmmm it can also mean an upside cos I can go shopping too! Hehe.)

O yes, I have taken out my bags that have traveled the world with me even if the vacation is still a while a way. I expect to be VERY busy at work in a couple of weeks time and that will last right till it is time for my vacation. I foresee that I will not be able to properly pack if I wait to the last minute. Thus, my normal 'throw in the bag as soon as u remember that the item needs to follow u' will become double handy. Then, the night before I leave, I shall quickly pack what will finally go.

I find that that is the way many members of my family also pack. My mom does that, my eldest and second sister too. On the other hand we have family members like my second brother-in-law who will only pack for his trip just the last minute before he showers to go on the trip!
I really would not be able to do a good job if I did that.

Then I also will start psyching my little nieces weeks ahead explaining that I will be away traveling so I am unable to visit and play with them. They do not seem to like the idea of me being away but hey, even aunties need to have adventures in their lives. :-)

I also like looking at places to stay. Somehow they always look better on the internet than IRL.
Still I enjoy doing that especially when I am not yet on vacation.
Guess it allows me the opportunity to dream of the vacation.
And that really is nice. :-)

Busy weezy

Been so busy at work lately.
Worked more than a full day since Sunday and every day since.
Its already Thursday.
At last things are beginning to ease a little.
I can finally think of other things besides work a little while.

I need to get the big scratches on my car fixed soon.
Actually, its only for aesthetic reasons, nothing more.
But my late dad always had pride on having clean shiny cars.
I think those values are passed down to his kids.
We like our cars to look nice and clean.