a little pain

Its almost here.
Tomorrow.
Vacation begins.
I am not yet prepared mentally or physically.
My shoulder muscles hurt. My back is in pain.
I actually need to rest rather than take a 20 hour flight
Mentally I am feeling a sadness that always appears when I am about to go away.
People normally just get excited about a holiday.
I get a sense of loss about going away.
I should not.
I dont even have too many people who will miss me being away.
I must look forwards, not backwards.