Lucky me, I know
Its never been easy for me to get over the end of my vacation times even when I was a kid.
Being older now, I guess I am able to hide my true feelings better.
Deep inside I feel the sadness like the loss of a close friend.
This time I also have to adjust coming home to a slightly 'different' mom.
She is always tired and spends alot of time in bed.
My mom's kids and grandkids gathered for a potluck high tea on Saturday.
That was a good move cos it encouraged my mom to get up and join us at the dinner table.
Since I have been home I have gotten quite a bit done.
My car has been fully serviced and I had the brake pads replaced. I also finally got the reason why the ABS lights were coming on at odd times. Finally I got a smart supervisor at the service center who detected the faulty lever thingy. All that cost me money but I consider it well spent.
I also got the cleaning people to come clean my condo. Its been a month since I was able to get that done. My house is now clean again!
I got my favourite hiking boots repaired and I am so glad that they are still usable. Those boots have been with me to so many places on this earth.
After a happy time like this vacation, I can't help but feel a bit 'empty' and at a loss.
My common sense tells me that I am such a lucky person, living such a full life.
My family, my job, my condo, my car, my everything is right here and they are all functioning for my well being.
I also have great friends who welcome me for those times that I need a change.
Not many people can make similar claims in their life.
Being older now, I guess I am able to hide my true feelings better.
Deep inside I feel the sadness like the loss of a close friend.
This time I also have to adjust coming home to a slightly 'different' mom.
She is always tired and spends alot of time in bed.
My mom's kids and grandkids gathered for a potluck high tea on Saturday.
That was a good move cos it encouraged my mom to get up and join us at the dinner table.
Since I have been home I have gotten quite a bit done.
My car has been fully serviced and I had the brake pads replaced. I also finally got the reason why the ABS lights were coming on at odd times. Finally I got a smart supervisor at the service center who detected the faulty lever thingy. All that cost me money but I consider it well spent.
I also got the cleaning people to come clean my condo. Its been a month since I was able to get that done. My house is now clean again!
I got my favourite hiking boots repaired and I am so glad that they are still usable. Those boots have been with me to so many places on this earth.
After a happy time like this vacation, I can't help but feel a bit 'empty' and at a loss.
My common sense tells me that I am such a lucky person, living such a full life.
My family, my job, my condo, my car, my everything is right here and they are all functioning for my well being.
I also have great friends who welcome me for those times that I need a change.
Not many people can make similar claims in their life.
posted by akumangkok at
7:49 PM
6 Comments:
it is about eight am where you are june and i suppose you are working by now.
i know the empty feeling you are feeling.
it is sad that your usually energetic mom is feeling so weak.
mom golden is getting frail too and it is all i can do to encourage her to get up and not be sleeping so much.
wnen bernie and i take her out, it seems to perk her up a bit
i wish that you could get your mom to go out for a restaurant meal again.
she will probably need a lot of help but from what i have read here, your family is a real good one!
that pot luck supper sounded really good, especially if you made a few of your casseroles!
you do not let the grass grow under your feet, eh?
you sure have got a lot of things done in such a short time.
good that your car is all fixed.
and your house clean? ha! it probably was already clean.
are those the hiking boots that you used when you were with jar?
no wonder that they are so special!
you have all your things junie...your car, your condo, your everything but what is more precious then your family, your ring, your boots and your jar?
god's blessings in you dear friend..love terry
Hi Terry,
Yup. Work has become my routine yet again.
Now that I have resusitated myself thru the wonderful vacation, I am reviewing the way I intend to live the rest of my life.
I used to think that I have so and so many years more to work, then I shall retire and live a comfortable life.
Much as I still want the comfortable portion to be with me, I will now be the deciding factor of when I shall be off from work permanently.
Its important for people to have work. There are many places on earth where unemployment leads to unrest. I have been so lucky to have such a good paying job all of my life.
However, once employed we sometimes begin to believe that there is no other life other than that job that we have. Then we slog all our life away, stressed out and letting ourselves be miserable because of wanting to hold on to a job that may not be the best life for us.
I believe that God takes care of each of us especially if we let Him.
I shall not bind my life to my job.
There are so many satisfying aspects of the job.
I shall be willing to give it up when the time comes. Maybe sooner than later.
Woooppps. Sorry Terry......I went on writing as though I was blogging.
I hope your Mom Golden gets energised, as does my own mom. My mom has started making jokes again so that has further added to my happiness. She has her birthday early next month. Soon I need to think of what present I shall get her.
Talk to u again, soon.
June
oh that is great news that your mom is joking again june!
she is a real trooper and i think that is where you get it from.
i know that it is so hard to be saddled to a job.
god has been so good to you and blessed you with such a good job and good benefits.
here in canada a person doesn't start to get a pension until the age of 60 and then at the age of 65 he gets an old age pension too.
it is alright if you have your house paid off but for many people it is hardly enough to scrape by on.
bernie has been blessed with a good factory job and when he retired, he got a factory pension.
he also has his 60 year old pension and the government gave me a disability pension of 500 dollars and so we can get along fine.
i feel sorry for the people who don't have an extra pension.
junie you are way too young to retire...if you save real hard maybe you can...
i think that the vacation has been so good for you and you are really thinking serious thoughts.
yes, you are right ..god takes care of us just as he keeps care of the birds and the flowers.
he knows exactly what we need.
how blessed we are to have him
nice hearing from you so soon..take care my special friend...love terry
Thanks for ur quick response Terry.
By nature, I am seldom rash and normally decide on major issues after I have thought it thru and done my research. So please do not worry too much about me at this point.
U see, I use my blog as a sounding board many a time.
I am really lucky that someone as nice as u takes the trouble to respond and help to give me a different perspective. I hope u will continue to do so for a lonnnnggggggggg time.
JAR is my other sounding board and I express myself to him via our emails and phone calls.
A couple of days ago, I was feeling 'low' after the euphoria of the vacation trip.
I wrote a semi poem about what I felt inside to JAR.
This morning I got a short comment and response from him and it has me up on top of the world again!
Hehehe.....as they say, nothing remains static forever.
Tomorrow I have my six month check-up at the breast clinic. Yup. Its been already 6 months after my operation. Time flies.
Then its the weekend and I get to see my mom and nieces. Yay!
June
ha! junie it is noon hour ..you must be on your lunch break or just getting over it!
sorry girl..whether you like it or not, you ARE stuck with me for a long long time!
wow what a picker upper for you ..hearing from jar.
he is a lucky man that you write poems for him. you are a picker upper to HIM too, i bet!
you sound so happy in your comment and that makes me happy too.
i will be thinking of you tomorrow..i mean YOUR tomorrow..it is still yesterday here!
praying that the doctor gives you only good news.
have a super weekend with your mom and nieces you sweet girl!...love terry
hi junie!!
i am thinking of you and hoping that you are enjoying your weekend with your mom!
love terry
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