Monday, September 12, 2011

Lamentations

By the time I went to bed last nite, I could not even swallow my own saliva.
I had such a bad throat that I was worried that I could not make a good presentation the next day.
I gargled salted warm water the last thing before and the first thing after bed.
It did help some but right now it still hurts.

I had much earlier planned to actually bring my own home cooked food to work for the next few months.
The elevators will be undergoing repairs and renovation and only half of the normal numbers will be made available for our usage.
Yes, the office goes on and on and on with renovations, inconveniencing all of us.
By the time they got all done, it WILL be time to move the office!
This has happened twice already!
I used the slow cooker so that my food will be just done when I am up from bed.
I boiled the rice as soon as I awoke.
I had just bought a cute thermal-ware container with its cover to bring my food.
Unfortunately, it did not taste as well as I wanted my lunch to be today.
Maybe it is partly because of my bad throat that almost nothing tastes good today.

I also discovered that I am not as strong yet as I had earlier believed.
Halfway thru my presentation I had to grab a chair to prevent myself from falling.
I felt a little faint at times but due to my experience, I was able to 'control' my focus.
I think I actually presented pretty well as I could see the audience response and understanding of the issue. Thus I am still quite happy.

My relatives have told me time and again not to rush things and take my recuperation in its time.
How I wish it is as easy to so as it is to say so.
When do u really know that u have reached the point of total recovery?
I really thought I had for at least more than a week.
Only to find that more time is needed.
It is almost like one step forwards and two steps back when u least expect it.

One step at a time.
First I must cure this sore throat.
Next I need to get more supplements.
I still have not regained any weight lost from the surgery.
Onwards.

Sunday, September 11, 2011

Pain on a Sunday

I spent my Sunday being on the net (read: Facebook) for many hours.
Actually I left my net-book on with the FB online.
I did make several entries, putting up stuff every couple of hours.
Why? Was I so free? Was I so into the cyber world?

The truth is I was in physical pain. I was not feeling well.
I was supposed to drive to my sister's place which is just around the corner to deliver her birthday (in a few days) presents from my mom and I.
I was too weak and at times was curled up on my bed, waiting for the pain to pass.
Right now I am still on my bed, wearing socks and breathing.
I do not have the TV on cos I cannot concentrate on it.
I prefer to be online and type out my 'stuff' when I feel able to.

I have called my mom up early this morning.
I did tell her that I do not think I would be able to visit my sister today.
I also said that I was not in pain, just feeling a little weak.
Why worry her if I did not need to?

The pain has currently subsided.
Maybe I shall take a pain killer before bed.
Maybe not if I can stand it.
I will be fine by tomorrow.
Insyaallah.

Tuesday, September 06, 2011

Preparing for what is ahead

This is the last week of the 'easy life' at work.
I was so lucky that this year we had a longer than usual off-peak season so my being away for the surgery and recuperation did not do too much damage.
Next week we will begin the cycle all over again.
I am looking forwards to that, yet I am also NOT looking forwards to that :-)

We had a week long break for the festivities last week so going back to work was like having to familiarize urself all over again to the routine.
I am making all possible preparations, as much as I possibly can, before the main crowd gets back.

Because I am trained to always plan ahead, I have actually laid the very basics of my next vacation which will only take place early next year.
Like my best buddy says "....the preparation is also part of the vacation!"
So in a way, I get to vacation wayyyyy before the actual date cos I luv making the planning and preparations, dreaming and wishing and praying about it too!

I find that I still need moments of rest but it is on a declining scale.
I am getting stronger and perhaps in the near future when I take up exercising seriously, I shall end up even stronger than I actually was before :-)
May the good times become even better.

Saturday, September 03, 2011

Changes in Raya routine

I am now on the last couple of days of my week long Hari Raya (Eid-ur-fitr) Festivities break.
Had such a pleasant time with the big family.
My mom did not hold an open house this year.
One of the main reasons is that when she does, I will normally play the role of her 'Chief Maid'.
I have not fully recovered to be able to undertake that role.
As it was, I needed to rest when we visited relatives.
In fact I actually took a nap at each of my sister's houses during our visits this year.

This year, we did not visit as many people.
Instead we chose to visit those closest to us, spending time at each house.
Chatting, eating and drinking.
Lots of fond memories recollected at each one.
Mostly happy times but for the visit to an aunt who has Alzheimer's.
She has deteriorated further, having to use a wheelchair now.
She does not recognize her own child sometimes too.
It is so sad to watch a much loved aunt become someone else in her now weak body.
I pray that if God so wishes me to have a long life, He would give me good health mentally, physically and emtionally right to the end.

My little nieces have followed their mom to their other grandparents home down south after spending the first few days with their dad and our family.
Of course, ex SIL tried to pull some weird stunts like turning up for our family dinner (uninvited) and early morning on the first day of celebrations as though she was going to help host the open day with us (not knowing that there was to be no open house, perhaps)
When u decide on divorce, it means u choose to not be part of the family.
Mostly we just let it pass and ignored her stupidity.
What u do not let hurt u, WON'T hurt u.

Life does go on.
My nieces are adjusting better and better now.
Children accept changes in routine much easier than adults.
They know they luv being with family and they do have family on BOTH their parents sides.
Bless them and may Allah protect them from all evil influences.