A-changing

Work is easing now. The next 'work-tsunami' will return third week of April. Until then I have some breathing space (I hope!). Things are a-changing....in ways that I am just suddenly aware of. Lets look at some examples:-
a) When I converse with my buddy, he no longer focuses his complaints on the ex. Getting the divorce proceedings legally over is the main cure. The poor guy has had a hard time and the ex wasnt letting go easily even tho she did not even appreciate his presence when they were together. I am glad my buddy is now able to get on with his life. He is excited about our next adventurous trip. This time his brother is coming along. We are all gonna have a heck of a time! Yeah man! (Ooopss.....I gotta cool it.....the trip is about two months away)
b) I am now doing work that I enjoy. I am doing the sort of work I took up this job for. I got detracted for a while back then. I was in the so called 'main-stream' of decision making. Working too hard, getting lots of attention and being in the limelight. Inside i was feeling lost and unhappy. I made a difficult stand to step to the side. I did it. I am on a slower track now. I am still kept busy but its no longer a crazy world. I can smell the flowers too. It may not seem so to the outsider right now but I did the right thing. I am happy.
c) Time passes by too fast. All my nephews and nieces are growing up too fast. I try to make it a point to meet them at least bi-weekly so that i dont miss out on them growing up but thats not an easy thing to do. most of my uncles are dead and now my aunts are aging too. I still have my mom so I am going to spend time with her before one of us has to leave.

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Somedays life does NOT move in the way you want it to. You know that you have the world to be thankful for, yet some tiny part of you hurts in an unexplainable manner.
I guess it is a more accepted phase in the female and they have even named it using alphabets....PMS. My belief is that everyone including males also suffer from this ailment. There is a part of every month or season when a person goes through some self inflicted feelings of the opposite of euphoria. It could be feelings of sadness, hopelessness or other forms of pain. If you find that the depressive feelings lasts for more than a day, you probably need expert help to overcome the depression. For me the descend of the negative feelings forces me to focus on the positives in my life. Yes, like all humans, I too do have some portions of my world that remains unfulfilled. And like all humans, the have been many blessings in my life too. Focussing on the brighter side keeps me sane. I shall overcome.

Blogs

Mmmmnnn..... having a blog is akin to writing in your diary with one major exception......you may have many a stranger peeking into your life with your permission. Actually I do hope somebody does read my writings. I too read other people's blogs and very seldom do I bother to post a comment in them. There is a blog written by a single mom of five. She writes about her ups and downs of daily life. She is an interesting writer and I do rejoice in silence everytime she goes through a happy phase. There is another blog written by a single gal who works in a competitive industry, just moved into a condo with a multitude of problems PLUS she is doing her masters at the same time. She is an intelligent writer and I enjoy her views on a variety of subjects.
Some bloggers have their family members or friends read their blogs and then have them comment on it. I prefer to remain anonymous, giving a rather vague picture of who, what or even where I am. Then I can sometimes slip in my deepest thoughts, saddest feelings, hopes and joys. Blogging is better than diary writing because when you know that someone out there may be reading this, you will be less emotionally charged when you write.